Showing posts with label Blacklisted. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Blacklisted. Show all posts

Tuesday, 4 March 2014

Column for Blacklisted: Chicken in a Rut

The second edition of a magazine called Blacklisted has just been published. I wrote a column for it!

The first edition's column is here.

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Limbo
Chicken in a Rut

You are a godsend, a spirit of goodwill. Your mission is to serve, and you must snuff out every spawn of evil.

Last year you came home from a wedding only to find the tag of your underwear protruding full sail. You wondered if it had begun to show before or after your speech, as no one was bold enough to enlighten you. But you embraced your humility. You donned it like a sword, and now you’re loath to see any man’s cheeks reddened by the hands of shame.

Since then, life has been easy, and an absence of the enemy has dulled your blade. The café in which you now find yourself seems harmless enough, though your eyes are wary; the evil one can be as elusive as a whisper within shadows.

A chance meeting with an old friend promises to be a fine occasion, but you gasp when he opens his mouth to speak, for there, betwixt his lower incisors, the darkness festers.

“How do you do?” he asks, oblivious of the parasite invading his mouth. The simple-minded would call it a fragment of poultry caught between two teeth, but you know better than them. If left untended, this ‘fragment’ will become the peak of humility for your innocent friend. You could strike now – a clean and swift cut – but this friend isn’t particularly close, and spilt blood might wound skin and pride both. It isn’t my job to fix this, you tell yourself, but you know that it is. You don’t carry a sword for nought, and a blunt sword is still a sword. Rid him of shame now to spare a greater dose later. But what if he can’t carry on with his pride all banged up? The tension makes you shudder.
“You okay?” he asks.
“There’s something in your teeth.”

If only you’d said those words. Instead, you turned away and pointed to the waitress approaching with coffee and tea. You avoided eye contact with your friend as often as you could, and not once did you mention the affliction. Now, on the car ride home, your sword sits in its scabbard. The parasite has been allowed to feed, and when your friend discovers and removes it himself, confidence and trust will too be severed. Your friend will be scarred and your sword will be blunt, all because you chose not to act.

Tuesday, 3 December 2013

Column for Blacklisted: Fire and Ice

A friend of mine recently published the first edition of her magazine, Blacklisted. I wrote a column as part of the content, and now that the magazine has been printed, I'm allowed to post the column on here!

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Limbo
Fire and Ice

The warmth of my bedcovers is like the perfect fire, soft light flickering off the log-cabin walls. I could sleep forever on this recliner; listen to the crackles of those everlasting flames.

Outside, the blizzard rages. Volleys of ice pelt the windows; trees sway in the tempest. The landscape is a piling blanket of white. Yet this sanctuary cannot fall. It has everything I need to outlast the storm. Everything… except a bathroom.

My bladder is a rising storm cloud: mounting, murmuring.  What better place to strike than the roof of my refuge?  Wood provides a hopeless defence, and yet the fire’s embrace captivates me. To think that I must abandon this peace…
A ghostly wind preludes the inevitable. One more moment, I say. One more moment.

Up above, the rafters rattle and shake. The storm won’t pause for me, and even if I return this serenity will be lost; sheer cold will render the fire useless. But if I stay? If I stay, this sanctuary will be destroyed.

I rise from my recliner, relinquish the hearth and march for the door. Pulling it open amounts to instant regret. The wind lashes at my skin like a thousand whips of ice. Against them my garments are as rags, and my teeth chatter in time with the rafters. Soon every bone in my body joins the chorus. Close the door, they plead. Close the door and stay inside!
But a flash of light floods the scene. It lasts half a second, yet it shocks my mind into high alert. There’s a life to live; work to do.
But… can’t I just… five more—
The clouds rumble in protest, so deep that the very earth tremors beneath me. Keep moving, they warn. There isn’t time.
There never is.

In that moment between asleep and awake, the one thing wrong with life is the fact that last night’s water wants somewhere to go. Each morning I’m reminded of the same truth; every comfort is plagued by an equal and opposite tension. It’s only as I dress that I realise the bedcovers were a prison - a comfortable and cosy prison. And you know what else? I’m returning to that prison tonight.


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